wheel of fat-tune

The magic number is 195.6. The good news is I haven’t gained weight.

I almost cried this morning. Usually I weigh myself multiple times because the floor in my apartment is uneven. First, the scale said 195.6, then it said 194.4, then it said 190.4. I was so disoriented. When I got to work, I went to the gym and the scale there said 198!!! It’s one of those scales that you step on and then move the bars until the middle bar finds balance, and I don’t usually trust those, but that was my tipping point. I was sad until afternoon, and I was sad to eat but I did anyway. After work, I went to my gym and the analog “professional” scale there said 191. I told the trainer to check it 3 times because I thought that was crazy. Although my mood was significantly improved, I wasn’t convinced. I think I would have “felt” 191. On a different note, today’s workout really tired me out. Not sure why. I don’t think it was more difficult than yesterday’s.

When I got home, I found several flat surfaces and the most prevalent weight was 195.6 (other variations were 195.4 and 196), so I’m calling this my weight. The good news is I haven’t gained weight. I don’t feel terrible, perhaps because I spent most of the day feeling quite awful. I lost 3/4 – 1 inch all around. I was surprised that I lost anything in my waist. My body fat loves to hang around there and show itself off.

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anticipation

Day 30!!!!!! I’m so nervous about my weigh-in tomorrow. Given how the last 30 days went, I think I’ll be happy if I weigh in at 193 pounds. At 194 I’ll feel ok, but slightly bad. I don’t think I can do any better than that. Ugh. I’ll update you guys tomorrow. I feel like I have a test or job interview and I’m as prepared as I’m going to be but I already know it’s not enough. Since I can’t pray the weight away, I think I’ll just talk about what I ate today.

Breakfast: “Cereal” (chopped hazelnuts and pecans, unsweetened dried apples, unsweetened coconut shreds), banana, almond milk, fruit salad (diced mango, peach, strawberry, papaya). The fruit salad was delicious, but I find that I’m not crazy about fruit. Does anyone have any ideas on how to make fruits less sweet? I just wasn’t feeling it.

Lunch: “Pasta bar” without the pasta or sauce. I guess I could just call it chicken stir fry.

Dinner: Half avocado, plantain porridge. This plantain porridge is amazing. The grocery store only had semi-unripe plantains so I was a little nervous about the starch content but it turned out fine. It’s a tiny little bit sweet, but I don’t mind it. Here’s the recipe I used, and here’s how it came out. I didn’t use any MSG cubes and I added chopped spinach, but otherwise I think I followed it more or less exactly. Aren’t you super excited? When last did I post a picture?

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Meanwhile, I went to the gym today, and the trainer scolded me and told me “we have to have a talk” the next time I come in. Yeah, ok. This time last week I was on my way home from work (9:55pm). He doesn’t understand quarter end. I really put my all into it today, though. I had a good time. How weird.

reintroduction 1: dairy

Breakfast: 1 banana, 8 strawberries, 1 delicious yoghurt.

Snack: 1 banana

Lunch: Large cafeteria salad with a little cheese (maybe 1 tablespoon) sprinkled over it.

Dinner: Same as last night, still delicious.

Dessert: Haagen-Dazs small strawberry cup, whipped cream, 6 Lindt chocolate truffles.

The Experience: It seems I didn’t miss yoghurt that much. When I started eating it, I didn’t feel that omg I want this so much feeling. I could easily do without it going forward. To think this was something I thought was fairly difficult to give up. I also didn’t miss cheese on salad. I don’t think that’s something I would have done before anyway, but I didn’t think I’d mind it. It just tasted wrong. Maybe if it weren’t shredded it would have seemed better. Certainly not doing that anymore.

We had a little office breakfast today. Prior to the start, I had decided that the only things that would be worth it were either a croissant or an apple danish. Neither of those things was available. The fresh bagels looked good, and the cream cheese flavors looked delicious, but all in all I kept thinking about the treats I had waiting at home and the 10 pounds I lost over the past month. That’s right. 10 pounds! I weighed in at 199.8 this morning, and I’ve lost 1.25 – 1.5 inches in each place I measured (bust, waist, hips). Today I measured a few extra places so I can compare for next time. Last night, I decided that I’d be happy if I had lost 5 pounds, 6 was the most I thought I could actually lose on this plan, as I haven’t exercised all that much. This really makes me happy.

Since I lost more weight than I imagined, I have to revise my previous weight loss goal. Essentially, between now and the end of my next Whole30 (August 5), I want to a) lose 10 more pounds; and b) exercise 4 times a week, including 1 day of laps in the pool. I bought this groupon for a gym with a pool ages ago, specifically for the summer, and it’s almost expired so I need to go sign up! I know it’s going to be harder since I’m starting from a different place than where I was a month ago, but now I know it’s achievable if I put in the work. This will mean that I’ve reached my first goal in 2 months. In my head, that’s still impossible.

Especially as I apparently am no good with days off. I went a little overboard with my dairy reintroduction at dinnertime lol. But whatever. Almost totally guilt free, only because I knew I didn’t want the ice cream as soon as I started eating it. It tasted much sweeter than I remember, and I would have preferred a more wholesome flavor, like coffee. And I only meant to eat 3 truffles, but they were so delicious. I ate the first three quite hurriedly then spent a lot of time savoring the rest. I’ve looked forward to today for a while.

I finally bought my full length mirror, so I’ll have some before-ish and after pics. Not up here, of course. Well maybe one day, when there’s a real “after” to show. Do I have to buy a bikini like one of those TV commercials? Lol. Might not be fun but it will be funny!

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oh she glows

Day 28, June 28

Post workout meal: 1 avocado. I was going to drink the rest of my almond milk but its useful life was over.

Brunch: Grilled chicken and spare ribs from the only restaurant I know that doesn’t put barbecue sauce on its barbecue.

Dinner: 3 scrambled eggs and 1 roasted plantain; sparkling water with lime slices for a little fancy drink.

Impressions: Yay for working out today. The trainer wanted me to do 15 burpees between each set but I only did 5. Dude is crazy. I didn’t put all my energy into it today, but I think it went ok.

For next week I’m thinking about trying that zucchini spaghetti that people have been talking about. I also bought a few things for my dairy reintroduction. 2 small yoghurts, 1 of those little Haagen-Dazs ice cream cups, and a bit of chocolate. Is it ok that I’m really excited by this? (Yes, it is, spoilsports!) On the 4th, I can’t decide whether to reintroduce gluten grains (bread) or gluten-free grains (rice), but I bought some Kerrygold butter because I think I see white bread in my future. I have a few days to decide. It was only a little difficult not to snack on any of that stuff as I was putting it away.I think I’ll survive until Tuesday.

I was also planning to roast a chicken this week, but I found some rabbit so I thought I’d try that instead. Who knew my regular old grocery store would sell rabbit? I’ve never cooked it before but the entire online foodie world agreed that parsley, bay leaf and sage would be good spice choices. I’m pretty excited about it so I’ll be writing all about that tomorrow.

Meanwhile, my face was bloody glowing today!! I felt like I HAD to complement all that glowsomeness with some eye liner and lip gloss, even though I was only going to the grocery store. How is this even possible with just changes to my food? I don’t know when I’m going to stop being amazed.

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Day 27, June 27

Breakfast: Veggie omelette (spinach, onions, mushrooms, red pepeprs) and med-large fruit bowl (cantaloupe, honeydew, kiwi, watermelon).

Lunch: Late lunch – efo riro over cauliflower.

Dinner: Banana 😦

Impressions: My timing for everything was out of whack today, so 4/5pm lunch, and banana at 11 or so. Hot lady from work told me my skin was glowing. Yay! My wristwatch can now fit (snugly) on the next hole in the strap. Yay! Isn’t this amazing? I wore a sleeveless shirt today without feeling super self conscious about it, even though my arms aren’t any smaller. I realize now that because I feel better I really don’t care what anyone thinks. Does that make sense? I suppose this is what people call better self esteem? Not that I think I have self esteem issues. But maybe I do/did. A little bit. Perhaps. I can’t wait to weigh in on Tuesday! Now that I want to look at my body all the time, I’m going to buy a full length mirror. What woman doesn’t own a full length mirror?! Ok, ok, (slight) self esteem issues. Whatever.

a taste of home

Day 21, June 21

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Breakfast/pre workout meal: 1 cup homemade cereal, half banana, 2 strawberries, almond milk. (Cereal: hazelnuts, pecans, dried apples, dried coconut)

Post workout meal: half cup cereal, half banana, almond milk

Lunch: Makeshift plantain amala with efo riro. I really felt like amala and I had no unripe plantain, so I mashed my semi-ripe plantain. While it technically came together, It was too sweet, and not starchy enough. Not to be tried again.

Dinner: Real plantain amala with efo riro. Oh delish!

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Impressions: Woke up and made some almond milk. It took a little getting used to, being unsweetened and all, but I’m in love with it now. I read a lot of recipes for grainless cereal but all of them called for seeds – hemp seeds or sunflower seeds or chia seeds or all three – and I’m just not into that. I made this to mimic my favorite childhood cereal, and I think I did a darned good job. Self control has been difficult.

I don’t know if my stomach is smaller but I find that I now struggle to finish meals I could easily have finished before, even with salads during the week. Weird. Anyway, apparently the gym got flooded and since the guy just rents the place, he wants to move it to a new place. Today we worked out in the park, which was actually very nice. I think I did a better job than I usually do, plus it was just me and another lady and we both really got some personalized support from the trainer. I felt really good. After my workout I went grocery shopping to make some more efo riro and buy some more unripe plantains. Here’s the plantain amala recipe (no drying the plantain!), and here’s my go-to efo riro recipe. I didn’t have half the stuff, and of course I had to leave out the locust beans. Plus I cooked it in coconut oil, and only seasoned with salt. The crayfish really saved the day, I tell you. Anything tastes authentic once there’s crayfish in it.

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the run

Day 17, June 17

Pre workout meal: 6 large strawberries. Something is better than nothing.

Post workout meal: Half avocado, 15 cashews.

Breakfast: Same frittata, but that was the last serving.

Lunch: Large steak and grilled veggie salad. I didn’t know I could enjoy a warm salad.

Dinner: You already know: cauliflower fried rice. Last serving as well 😦

Impressions: I can’t believe I haven’t posted in almost a week! Like the title suggests, I blame it on the run. But let’s run through my day before we get to that.

I got up at 4:55 to get to the gym at 5:30. Does this make me a totally changed person? I didn’t think I could do it. The guy showed up and it was an OK workout. I couldn’t do all the burpees. Burpees are the devil, period. I feel like a got a full body workout though, except maybe abs.

The trainer says to me, “So am I seeing you tomorrow?”

I say, “No, maybe Thursday morning, because I’m going running tonight.”

He says, “OK, but come tomorrow. 5:30.”

I say, “Okay then.”

I mean… who can argue with that? This is what I need. Someone just telling me to show up, not giving me all sorts of options. And there’s a certain power in making an appointment that just makes you go. He brought up the shakes again, though. Now I’m going to tell him I’ve bought a shake so he can stop asking. I suppose I could have just told him I don’t do shakes, but I pick my battles :/

I definitely ate too much at lunch. Although I was already tired from waking up early, I had to have some caffeine after lunch, so I got some unsweetened iced tea (Pure Leaf). Fortunately, I enjoyed unsweetened iced tea prior to this exercise. Is there such a thing as too much salad?

The Run: We ran-walked (with the occasional jog) 3 miles on the streets outside of the office. I have immensely flat feet, so I knew they were going to betray me before we had gone far, but I thought I could deal with the pain later, only stopping when absolutely necessary. We sprinted and power-walked to our 1.5 mile mark; I was a little slower with my walking to give my feet a break, but heart rate was up. Coming back was a different story. We sprinted up the hills and power walked/walked the rest of the way. Because I was dying from my feet as well as from my need for air. My heart rate was through the roof. My buddy was totally supportive, but I just knew I was slowing her down more than she would have liked. Anyway we got back and stretched, and I felt OK. I was on my feet for a few minutes, chatting with a colleague, then I sat down for 5 minutes. When I got up, the pain in my feet was ridiculous. I limped to my car and took off my shoes. Feet were throbbing at the arch and driving home was a chore. By the time I got home, my arches were swollen and painful to the touch. I tried to massage my soles with a lacrosse ball but there was no relief. The pain was mad. The outer sides of my feet were painful too, I suppose because I had stared landing funny during the run to make up for the pain in the arches. I stretched some more at home, had dinner, and went to bed. This was another ordeal. Every time my feet touched each other, I woke up from the pain. This lasted until about 4am, so I sent the trainer a text message and I told him I wasn’t coming in. Finally at about 5, I got a full hour and a half of sleep.