back on frittatas

After almost two weeks of breaking down my body with carbs, sugars, and many things I won’t mention, I started my third Whole30 yesterday.

I know that must sound very diet-righteous, and you already know I’m sick of the the diet police. Here’s why I refer to eating less healthy foods as breaking down my body:

In the last 2 weeks, I’ve felt my body deteriorate. Even though I’ve only gained about 2 pounds, there’s no more clear/glowing skin, I look and feel more bulky, I’m constipated and gassy (I’ve had a lot of dairy), I’m pretty much constantly bloated, I’m tired all the time – I wake up tired and I find it more difficult to fall asleep, I’m waking up much later, sugar cravings, mid-afternoon snack cravings, need caffeine for energy.

The good news is all is not lost. My knowledge on food, etc isn’t gone and I’m back on the struggle/journey. I’m trying to listen to my body again, and to eat just enough to get to the next meal. Sometimes this whole thing is so draining, honestly.

Still on the good news, today’s frittata was so delicious (beef, green peppers, mushrooms, onions, curry, thyme). I also worked out today and sorted out the drama with the trainer. I may not have written about that. Well it’s done anyway. AND I signed up at the gym at work. Eek!

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wheel of fat-tune

The magic number is 195.6. The good news is I haven’t gained weight.

I almost cried this morning. Usually I weigh myself multiple times because the floor in my apartment is uneven. First, the scale said 195.6, then it said 194.4, then it said 190.4. I was so disoriented. When I got to work, I went to the gym and the scale there said 198!!! It’s one of those scales that you step on and then move the bars until the middle bar finds balance, and I don’t usually trust those, but that was my tipping point. I was sad until afternoon, and I was sad to eat but I did anyway. After work, I went to my gym and the analog “professional” scale there said 191. I told the trainer to check it 3 times because I thought that was crazy. Although my mood was significantly improved, I wasn’t convinced. I think I would have “felt” 191. On a different note, today’s workout really tired me out. Not sure why. I don’t think it was more difficult than yesterday’s.

When I got home, I found several flat surfaces and the most prevalent weight was 195.6 (other variations were 195.4 and 196), so I’m calling this my weight. The good news is I haven’t gained weight. I don’t feel terrible, perhaps because I spent most of the day feeling quite awful. I lost 3/4 – 1 inch all around. I was surprised that I lost anything in my waist. My body fat loves to hang around there and show itself off.

anticipation

Day 30!!!!!! I’m so nervous about my weigh-in tomorrow. Given how the last 30 days went, I think I’ll be happy if I weigh in at 193 pounds. At 194 I’ll feel ok, but slightly bad. I don’t think I can do any better than that. Ugh. I’ll update you guys tomorrow. I feel like I have a test or job interview and I’m as prepared as I’m going to be but I already know it’s not enough. Since I can’t pray the weight away, I think I’ll just talk about what I ate today.

Breakfast: “Cereal” (chopped hazelnuts and pecans, unsweetened dried apples, unsweetened coconut shreds), banana, almond milk, fruit salad (diced mango, peach, strawberry, papaya). The fruit salad was delicious, but I find that I’m not crazy about fruit. Does anyone have any ideas on how to make fruits less sweet? I just wasn’t feeling it.

Lunch: “Pasta bar” without the pasta or sauce. I guess I could just call it chicken stir fry.

Dinner: Half avocado, plantain porridge. This plantain porridge is amazing. The grocery store only had semi-unripe plantains so I was a little nervous about the starch content but it turned out fine. It’s a tiny little bit sweet, but I don’t mind it. Here’s the recipe I used, and here’s how it came out. I didn’t use any MSG cubes and I added chopped spinach, but otherwise I think I followed it more or less exactly. Aren’t you super excited? When last did I post a picture?

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Meanwhile, I went to the gym today, and the trainer scolded me and told me “we have to have a talk” the next time I come in. Yeah, ok. This time last week I was on my way home from work (9:55pm). He doesn’t understand quarter end. I really put my all into it today, though. I had a good time. How weird.

kill all the things

I was certainly more testy than usual today, right in line with the timeline. This didn’t happen last time. I made fun of one of my coworkers who talks too much. I’m usually more overtly tolerant, and I really only meant to do it in my head, but it came tumbling out of my mouth. Oh well.

I was also more hungry than usual – hungry for lunch right about noon, and then for a snack around 4, and I was still hungry shortly after. Am I still making up for yesterday? Meh, I dunno. What I do know is that I’m for sure a stress eater. I was having such a difficult day and I kept thinking about things that I could pop into my mouth, like chin chin or bite-sized cookies. Here’s the stuff I actually ate:

Breakfast: 3 eggs with mushrooms and onions, fruit bowl.

Lunch: Steak and veggie stir fry. The cafeteria is stepping it up a little.

Snack: Banana and overpriced cantaloupe cup

Dinner: Same as last night, except plantains were a little more burnt lol.

Season 2, Episode 3

It’s been a crazy busy week, and it’s only Tuesday! I started another Whole30 on Sunday, and I made some more of the cauliflower fried rice. (Yes, B, I’ll send you the recipe.) Yesterday and today, I’ve had no breakfast and late lunches. This evening, I was craving chicken drumsticks. Chicken drumsticks??! I think I was just starving. All I had for lunch today was a banana, an overpriced fruit cup and a bunch of cashews. I stopped by the store on the way home and instead of chicken I picked up some turkey drumsticks. I had grand plans of browning and baking them but decided it wasn’t worth the wait. I seasoned and boiled them, and lightly pan fried them in coconut oil.

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The entire meal was worth all the meals I’ve missed in the last 3 days. Here’s the daily:

Beakfast: None

Lunch: Banana, fruit cup, cashews

Dinner: Turkey drumstick with fried plantains and cauliflower fried rice

I got a pretty bad headache today, and I felt quite hazy in the afternoon. I couldn’t determine whether it was from hunger or from lack of sugar, per day 3 symptoms. It didn’t really matter which, and I only feel slightly better, a few hours after dinner. 27 days to go. Geez.

the rabbit and the finish line

Day 30, June 30

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Breakfast: 2 scotch eggs, 1 banana, 8 strawberries, half avocado

Lunch: Boring cafeteria salad

Dinner: Roasted rabbit with asparagus, brussel sprouts and carrots.

Impressions: Day 30! I did it, I did it!!! I feel like doing a little jig. Today was surprisingly more difficult than usual. I had to remind myself several times that today is not Day 31. In other news, I made the worst scotch eggs ever. I used the same recipe I used for the meatballs last night, and it was quite ugh. Basically over seasoned for scotch eggs, but fine for meatballs.

Alright, the rabbit: It doesn’t look much different from chicken, but it tasted subtly different. It has a delicate flavor. You might miss it if you’re not looking for it. I cooked it a little drier than I’d have liked because I forgot to set my gas oven 25 degrees lower than the recipe called for. All the same, it wasn’t dry dry, probably because I spent a lot of time basting it. It was quite tasty, really. Here’s my step-by-step(ish).

I layered the veggies in the roasting pan, drizzled a little under 1/8 cup of melted clarified butter over it, sprinkled with salt and pepper, gave it all a good shake, then laid the onion rings over it.

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Then I rubbed clarified butter all over the rabbits, sprinkled with salt, pepper, thyme, dried parsley (because I stupidly used all my fresh parsley in my meatball/scotch egg mixture). I noticed they had a tiny little cavity so I stuffed 1 large smashed garlic and a few sage leaves in each one, and 1/6 of a lemon in 1 of them, just as a tester. I laid the rabbits in the pan and sprinkled some more sage and onions over them because I had just noticed that sage smells amazing, and I needed to use the leftover half onion, and I figured neither would hurt the flavor of the rabbits.

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I loosely covered the pan with foil and threw the lot of it in a 325 degree fahrenheit oven for an hour and a half (basting every 15 minutes or so), turning the temp up to 450 for the last 15 minutes to give it a nice gold-brown tone. That reddish-looking part sticking out is the neck (not the butt). I didn’t bother to cut it off. The asparagus is obviously a quite overcooked, but the other veggies surprisingly held their own.

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That’s it! Not very difficult. I think some dry white wine would have cooked nicely with this, as well as some mushrooms. I have a good mind to make some soup too, but I’ll probably be too lazy. Yay! Whole 30 done!!! I hope you guys will continue to follow me on my weight loss/healthy lifestyle journey. Other than having a semi-stalker trainer, knowing that there are people who read this keeps me accountable.

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day of temptation

Day 24, June 24

Breakfast: Same as yesterday, without the excitement. Kinda tired of it now.

Lunch: Not-so-boring salad from cafeteria.

Dinner: Efo riro with plantain amala. A few dried apple slices for dessert.

Impressions: Even though I used a smaller plantain, it was still too much. Didn’t finish it. Next time I’ll use half of a large plantain. Today was quite interesting. A colleague was sent a large sheet of milk chocolate. This was TEMPTING. I miss chocolate. Last week I was on Lindt’s website, tempted to order chocolate for Day 31. Today, I was tempted to take some and freeze it for later, or just to put a tiny little piece in my mouth, but I said no no no, I don’t need it. Fast forward to the afternoon. We had an office-wide meeting, and they gave out ice cream sandwiches. ICE CREAM SANDWICHES. Wasn’t I just talking about ice cream yesterday? It took everything in me not to have one. If this week had been next week, that wouldn’t have happened.

I finished the book today, and most of the stuff in it makes sense. It was worth the read to know how imbalances are created, but some parts of it were “based on experience”, etc, which can be argued. Science can also be argued but I don’t read enough science material to have arguments for it. All in all, it was quite informative. I was particularly interested in the reintroduction part, so I was glad I got to that. I think my biggest argument with the book is at one point they refer to a “sexy apple shape”. I absolutely disagree that the apple shape is sexy. Pear shaped people look better without even trying. I have a friend who also wears a size 14, but gains weight in her hips and thighs. We could wear the same dress, and she would automatically look hotter because she has a slimmer waist, smaller arms and smaller boobs. Anyway forget all that. I’ve definitely drank the Whole30 water. You can’t tell me anything wrong about it.

In terms of diet stuff, I still find myself super hungry around 4/4:30. After reading the book, I think I need to adjust my meals – bigger lunch, smaller dinner. And I definitely need to introduce more fat into my lunch so I can stay fuller longer. I need to work on shifting my mind to stop thinking I need something sweet after something savory (i.e. dessert after dinner). On a different note, I’m looking forward to eating eggs again, and it’s been at least a week since I had avocado. Can’t wait until breakfast!

Good news: Someone told me I look slimmer today. Yay!